Moments...

There will be flashes of brilliance and productivity coupled with equal mental silence and a lack of drive to do anything. Jupiter will stir you to want to make that change, to need to make that change. Make the change. It’s time to reevaluate anything that is not prospering and take the risk to do what will. Your creativity is peaking this year, so you may as well go out there and chase after whatever crazy idea strikes you.  :D so here I come :D Crazy Ideas :D Wow also it says....You do things with purpose.Yes me have purpose setup for all my actions even the crazy ones. :D

Zinda hain laashein,Murda zameen hai Jeene ke kabil duniya nahi hai !! Duniya ko thokar kyun na laga doon Khud apni hasti kyun na mita doon !! ... Jee kar yaha dil bhar gaya Dil ab to marne ka dhoondhe bahana!!  Some sadist....but check the reply below:  Zindagi ki asli udaan abhi baaki hai, Zindagi ke kai imtihann abhi baaki hai. Abhi to napi hai muthi bhar zameen aapne, Aage abhi saara aasman baaki hai. Khojoge to her manzil ki raah mil jati hai, Sochoge to her baat ki wajah mil jati hai, Zindagi itni bhi majbur nahi ae dost…! Jigar se jiyo to maut bhi jeene ki adaa ban jati hai.    

So hows me doing....howdy howdy.... Me doing good....how was my weekend a long one...yes a long one...well it was good....I saw 2 movies....WHAT just 2 movies....whats happened to me....me slowing down....just 2....anyways both were good.... American Blend -  an Indian Family  actually an Indian married to a American and the way they live - best were the unsaid love exchanged between the elderly couple. Anyways a one time ok movie to watch. Invictus - Man awesome movie a must watch. Me also went for the happiness sale although it didn't make me that happy coz what I liked either wasnt on sale or just had 20% off :( after trying n number of clothes really N Man I tried and tried....anyways finally me picked up a few and S too picked up a few and then we just went to check the amt and the guy at the counter said this one doesn't have discount and this one is just 20% off.....so we came back then we tried the stuff again and was like so what lets buy it....again went to b...

Out of the night that covers me, Black as the Pit from pole to pole, I thank whatever gods may be For my unconquerable soul. In the fell clutch of circumstance I have not winced nor cried aloud. Under the bludgeonings of chance My head is bloody, but unbowed. Beyond this place of wrath and tears Looms but the Horror of the shade, And yet the menace of the years Finds, and shall find, me unafraid. It matters not how strait the gate, How charged with punishments the scroll. I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul. William Ernest Henley

It been a difficult time and I made it more....but now I can sit back and think over everything....anyways now me wont stop or put everything to standstill for one thing. It doesn't make sense. Let me go with the flow. Everything will be as I had dreamed about. Yes true. I tested God too - you know that day most of the flights were delayed or canceled except mine as I asked God that show me a sign if I will be forgiven for my mistake and things will be exactly like I dreamed God showed me the sign. Now real changes to be done within me - I get overwhelmed too easily and pressurize myself. Nothing is so difficult or cannot be done. So let me make a note of things that needs to be done and as I did earlier put in dates against it when I have to hit the panic button and then forget it  till that date. I will just make a calendar with dates marked and on that date will see what I need to do. One thing at a time. Viola this worked...automatically my electricity bill became ok.......

I am not wrong and neither is he. We both reacted to the pressure.Its a challenging time and we will overcome. I have learnt that suppressed emotions takes a very bad shape now I will implement this learning. And I had lots of other learning too.Let me live life the way I would as If everything is normal and we are together. Yes finally I give up controlling things if god wants then VR1. Only good things will happen to us.