Moments...

Standing under the rain getting drenched doesn't help at all. The tears just stream by and I am not dry. These lines from Twilight has etched somewhere in me and I cant wipe it. "I have to let go But why I cant hurt you anymore. I cant do that anymore. But you are going to hurt me by going away hurt me beyond repair dont you know that?" Doesn't anyone know how difficult it is to survive with the BIG gaping hole. I am doing that trying to live with the hole - the one which refuses to get filled up. These days a new deadly emotion has overpowered me - Jealousy. Yes I am jealous of everything and everyone. That doesn't fill my hole. Nothing seems to fill it. Waiting for something to fill it. Maybe I am not like Bella our similarities end here. Maybe...its raining and maybe there is hope....

Yes I belong to her or maybe I used to now. I loved her as much she loved me - my love. Anyways the story started a couple of months back. We had gone out and then this huge gray wheels squashed me. Instantly she jumped off and patted me. I was in so much pain but she kept telling me nope you are ok. So I felt ok too hearing her soothing voice. Then a week later she took me to my clinic. Suddenly I had become not a single color but many shades predominantly all yellow, blue and black. The gal there cleaned me moistened me. She had pretty soft hands and under the supervision of my love she painted me in of my love's favorite shades of pink. My love took care of me. You see my love has a problem she keeps hitting things and hurting herself. No idea but she keeps falling and these days she keeps telling me about some Bella some Twilight... anyways I hardly understand her what she speaks but I like her soothing voice. She took extra precaution so that I didnt get hurt again. ...

Can you see the little fella peeking into my room.

Lot of my questions were answered by the books. Anyways the movie is ok not that bad as I has thought movies turn out when created from books. If anyone doesn't like reading  they can watch the movie too :) Soon is going to follow my review or maybe its not required anymore :) And you see already 2 posts on them before even me touched the review part. See I told you that it inspired me and I meant it :D “My life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars – points of light and reason….And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by light. I couldn’t see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.” Numbness wears off nothingness takes over delusions and distractions  that's what moves you on no logic no reason Hollow laughter ...

“I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz, or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off. I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, in secret, between the shadow and the soul. I love you as the plant that never blooms but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers; thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance, risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body. I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride; so I love you because I know no other way than this: where I does not exist, nor you, so close that your hand on my chest is my hand, so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep. ”

I love them :) Candice is me :) Here's a song : SIMP :D http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nsTlKOl9WBI&feature=related and also watch the one Geetche Geetchi goo :D

This is the work of Poet: Dr. Kumar Vishwas - I am speechless read it for yourself. Koi deewana kehta hai,koi paagal samajhta hai magar dharti ki bechaini ko bus pagal samajhta hai mein tujhse door kaisa hoon, tu mujhse door kaisi hai ye tera dil samajhta hai, yaa mera dil samajhta hai Mauhabbat ek ehsasson ki pawan si kahaani hai kabhi kabira deewana tha, kabhi meera diwani thi yahaan sab log kehte hain meri aankhon mein aasoon hain jo tu samjhe to moti hai, naa samjhe to paani hai samandar peer ka andar hai lekin ro nahin sakta ye aasoon pyaar ka moti hai isko kho nahin sakta meri chahaht ko apna tu bana lena magar sun le jo mera ho nahin paaya wo tera ho nahin sakta Ki brahmar koi kumudni par machal baitha to hangama hamaare dil mein koi khwab pal baitha to hungama abhi tak doob kar sunte the sab kissa mauhabbat ka mein kisse ko hakikat mein badal baitha to hungaama

When one changes one tries to push oneself into an unfamiliar and unwanted territory - thus unsteadying oneself. Its very easy to revert back to the original being rather than continuing with the change. So henceforth look forward to evolving oneself. And the muse: A caterpillar, crawling bug, but metamorphosis into a butterfly, flying beauty. Did you ever think that the caterpillar could fly? No even the caterpillar didn't know, it just lets go of itself and continues to evolve oneself. It applies no restriction, no resistance but simply lets go and evolves. Also in evolution, unlike change, there are phases. You move from one phase to another; stay there for some time and then when you am ready move into the next phase. Each phase has its own share of pains and happiness and when the time and conditions are right you move into the next phase. Maybe you wont even realize that you are into the next phase but then one day you will be the Butterfly.

Yes yes its happening I can watch but not use my camera :( 2 tiny bulbuls pushing away the Myna :) And tiny sparrows shrieking (mean chirping) Shoo Shoo to the one :) And just a while back I was grieving Why am I seeing Sorrow Sorrow No more of it for tomorrow And now this Myna walks in to my house and from under my nose picks the dead cockroach. It loses it way as its sees its reflection on the glass door :) and then finds back its way and flies away. So I am back to grieving....SORROW SORROW :(

My best friends :D I love them :) And this is the one who is building nest....:) And the invaders....

The sparrows who come to my balcony loves rice or biscuits that too Parle G / Horlicks. They just dont like bread :(  So I got for them rice which they simply love. Anyways me enjoy watching them while they peck their food. At times when the breeze is too much they are blown away :) Its fun to watch them have fun :) Have tried to take the pics but they fly away :( But keep trying is my mantra and me will get some snaps :)

Awesome movie....hilarious and very well done ;) Must watch!!! and the song Ullu da phatta I dedicate to :)