Moments...

Her hole in heart and her belief that Edward is there.... “Where you used to be, there's a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling into at night."  ~ Edna St. Vincent Millay “If I go away What would still remain of me? The ghost within your eyes? The whisper in your sighs? You see... Believe…And I'm always there.” ~ Jon Oliva

One moment everything was as it should have been. Surrounded by people I loved.Smiles. Somehow, unlikely as it was, it seemed like I was about to get everything  I'd been fighting for. And then one tiny, inconsequential thing had gone wrong. ‎"My life and his were twisted into a single strand. Cut one, and you cut both. If he were gone, I would not be able to live through that. If I were gone, he wouldn't live through it, either. And a world without Edward seemed completely pointless. Edward had to exist."  ~ Bella  And so I read the book Midnight Sun. Please Meyer please publish this book but dont make a movie but publish this book please.

As I watch you sleeping… I lay by your side thinking… There are no words to describe the way that I feel for you There are none… strong enough…to convey… all my love Ever since that day that you walked into my life I have been yours… only yours… every day… forevermore If only I could touch you If only I could kiss you If only I could wrap my arms around and never release you If only I could touch you If only I could kiss you If only I could wrap my arms around and never release you So lay your head in rest, my love, and dream of coming to me In your dreams… where I’ll be… kissing you… feeling you The only chance I have of holding you, tightly in my arms Is when you sleep… in your sleep… when you dream… when you dream of loving me If only I could touch you If only I could kiss you If only I could wrap my arms around and never release you If only I could touch you If only I could kiss you If only I could wrap my arms around and never release you Even thou...

Yeah please go and read books. Bella is supposed to look breakable. She is supposed to have a hole in her heart. Does the character even understand how to live with the hole in the heart????????? Anyways forget the stupid movie and read the series. Don't wait for the last movie also read Breaking Dawn book. The time spent in reading the book is all worth.

"When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it's not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end." So said Stephenie Meyer and so true. I am not gonna grieve because Twilight the dream  book which I was reading (in fact savoring) has come to an end. I sat still till I read all the books - the entire series. I know this may sound stale to many but even though the books and movies have been making rage I was left untouched. Actually I had intentionally kept myself away not completely though. Long back I participated in a random contest asking me to choose sides and by some irrational reasoning I had chose to be Team Edward. And now I am 100% sure thats the team I wanted to be. That day  I got a glimpse of the movie and I knew I had to read it. Well the term un-put-downable can actually be synonymous with Twilight. I loved the pace that she maintains right from the first word and kept me glued. Just read the part where the Cullen family plays baseb...

Standing under the rain getting drenched doesn't help at all. The tears just stream by and I am not dry. These lines from Twilight has etched somewhere in me and I cant wipe it. "I have to let go But why I cant hurt you anymore. I cant do that anymore. But you are going to hurt me by going away hurt me beyond repair dont you know that?" Doesn't anyone know how difficult it is to survive with the BIG gaping hole. I am doing that trying to live with the hole - the one which refuses to get filled up. These days a new deadly emotion has overpowered me - Jealousy. Yes I am jealous of everything and everyone. That doesn't fill my hole. Nothing seems to fill it. Waiting for something to fill it. Maybe I am not like Bella our similarities end here. Maybe...its raining and maybe there is hope....

Lot of my questions were answered by the books. Anyways the movie is ok not that bad as I has thought movies turn out when created from books. If anyone doesn't like reading  they can watch the movie too :) Soon is going to follow my review or maybe its not required anymore :) And you see already 2 posts on them before even me touched the review part. See I told you that it inspired me and I meant it :D “My life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars – points of light and reason….And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by light. I couldn’t see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.” Numbness wears off nothingness takes over delusions and distractions  that's what moves you on no logic no reason Hollow laughter ...