Moments...

I'm at peace with myself. I'm not perfect and I dont want to be perfect. Then what is the purpose in my life - To make myself evolve to be better of myself. After every fall I evolve myself, I rise and move ahead. I believe that hope in humanity still exist. No one is trying to sabotage my life. Each one is struggling to live theirs. What I refuse to give up is: Give up trusting people Give up believing every word they say I will trust everyone and all irrespective if they break my trust. Because I am a human and I will continue to do so. I cannot lose hope on humanity.  I will believe every word one says. I believe they mean what they speak. There is no dearth of words when you want to convey what you want to mean. They have the courage to do so. If they choose to do or not to do is not for me to question. I cannot lose hope on humanity.  Till I reach my destination, I will continue to evolve. Its a painful process but I choose to evolve than stagnate.

This is the story of a young boy who fell in love with a girl. After a couple of months the boy made a visit to a different city. There he met another girl and suddenly realized that this girl could make him rich and successful. He forgot the girl back home. But the girl could not forget the love of the boy. She persisted in following up with the boy. The boy kept on trying to find ways how to push out the girl away. The boy was unsuccessful. The girl persisted. Finally the boy planned an evil trick. He along with his family again played a game to not just push away the girl but also kill her emotions. The girl was left shattered by the emotion less family and the boy. Her story ends there. The boy and the girl whom he met in the other city married each other. They lived rich. Another story in a different era Young girl is crying inconsolably. A boy had left her on her wedding day for another girl. The distraught father is trying his best to pacify the girl. D...

I have always had this kick when I travel. First is the challenges that one encounters - unknown faces, unknown land, unknown future....thats all I need to figure out - the unknown. But after traveling and figuring out 4 cities on my own I feel enough is enough. Does that mean I have given up. Life's over. Or maybe entered mid-age crisis. Yes somethings not going right. In retrospect I have never been like others. I have been different or maybe its just me who thinks so. I am like everyone else - unique yet common. But when I look back I may have done things differently even in my childhood. When kids of my age were playing I used to be on my own - talking to my plants, walking around in the garden, collecting bugs, beetles, fireflies, looking at different insects and even in the car I used to lie down in the rear of our Beetle and eye the sky. Not look out of the window :) But when asked to play I was pretty good in outdoor and indoor games - badminton, volley ball, car...

Yes yet another year dawns upon. There is nothing new about it the same old calendar with dates and days in motion. Yet Wish a happy new year! Hope flourishes, dreams float, a time to resolve new beginnings, a time to  forgive and forget and live and let live! Happy New Year!

Yes these days mostly weekends me sit and watch the feathered beings having fun :) Have kept this water plate and some grains for them. Already had visits from: Sparrows love the chi chis Bulbul Doves Pigeons didn't like them as they drooped shits :( Quail Myna although me shoo away if its one for sorrow :( and today came mighty Raven and I had a tough time shooing it away. and have had visits from Madarsi Chidiya And today arrived this one ....Barbler   and another one awesome looking sunbird :D

Can you see the little fella peeking into my room.

When one changes one tries to push oneself into an unfamiliar and unwanted territory - thus unsteadying oneself. Its very easy to revert back to the original being rather than continuing with the change. So henceforth look forward to evolving oneself. And the muse: A caterpillar, crawling bug, but metamorphosis into a butterfly, flying beauty. Did you ever think that the caterpillar could fly? No even the caterpillar didn't know, it just lets go of itself and continues to evolve oneself. It applies no restriction, no resistance but simply lets go and evolves. Also in evolution, unlike change, there are phases. You move from one phase to another; stay there for some time and then when you am ready move into the next phase. Each phase has its own share of pains and happiness and when the time and conditions are right you move into the next phase. Maybe you wont even realize that you are into the next phase but then one day you will be the Butterfly.

Yes yes its happening I can watch but not use my camera :( 2 tiny bulbuls pushing away the Myna :) And tiny sparrows shrieking (mean chirping) Shoo Shoo to the one :) And just a while back I was grieving Why am I seeing Sorrow Sorrow No more of it for tomorrow And now this Myna walks in to my house and from under my nose picks the dead cockroach. It loses it way as its sees its reflection on the glass door :) and then finds back its way and flies away. So I am back to grieving....SORROW SORROW :(

My best friends :D I love them :) And this is the one who is building nest....:) And the invaders....

The sparrows who come to my balcony loves rice or biscuits that too Parle G / Horlicks. They just dont like bread :(  So I got for them rice which they simply love. Anyways me enjoy watching them while they peck their food. At times when the breeze is too much they are blown away :) Its fun to watch them have fun :) Have tried to take the pics but they fly away :( But keep trying is my mantra and me will get some snaps :)

In the opposite building the gulmohar is in full bloom and I can hardly see any green. Its all covered with orange and red glory - fiery hot. Coming closer, the sal trees lining the road are all green. Much closer the jasmine is full bloom the bushes look all green and white each color trying to look beyond other but all that overpowers is the sweet fragrance. Back home its cold the money plant is still struggling 14th leaf unfolded but the 1st is dying.

Those beautiful lavender colored flowers......a look at the tree and no leaf in signt only flowers...a breeze blew them over me and I discovered they were actually seeds entrapped in thin wafer like in fact papery wrapper - a work of beauty.  Aren't you scared that maybe you will never find your place on this Earth - you may be blown away very far or maybe crushed even before you reach your destined spot. And they just smile and spread their wings. What happens tomorrow will not decide today. Like us lighten yourself, spread your wings and fly and let the guiding light lead you to your destiny. My mood elevates. That little hint of red in the lush green was a beauty. The flowers were like miniature ones as if God created tiny pieces of the bigger ones. Can I touch you? For you noticed the tiniest ones. People just walk by not noticing engrossed in themselves or burdened by the baggage they carry. No I am too carrying a baggage but strangely in-spite of everything I still c...

It made me start praying....I was scared to my wits ends with the T-Storms....I tried to smile when God flashed the camera but me not sure if I could do it any longer....it was a real scare and me started praying when the sun comes out everything will be fine and went on and on....and viola me woke up like 45 mts of the storm and the sun was really out and there was this amazing red glow around and the storm had stopped actually dead and gone forever :) Not sure if we gonna have it tomorrow :( These untimely rains are killing the crops :(

Its rightly called as soul....it touches, moves and livens up the soul. What a way to share ones emotions - happy and glad and sad too Yes when I see people sad they play their instrument and within the melody they let go their emotions...no negativity shared but still you have let out their negativity.... I guess as a good parent we need to atleast introduce our kids to the music.....let them choose to carry it forward or give up but for once we should. Maybe it will help them to cope up with their life better. Maybe. I am no Guru in bringing up kids but I think as an adult I miss out this aspect from my life and maybe there could be others too. So just thought of sharing my two cents :)

Nature's miracles.... December 31 (Blue Moon on New Year's Eve)

Well during one of my trips, sitting in the car; my mind was drifting here and there; the usual. Will tell you about my trip in a few days, once I get the pics uploaded too :) I was thinking about relationships and this happened because I was coming back from a trip visiting my relatives. I realized that in any kind of relationship I can tell what I want or expect; I mean what I want to take from the relationship but I never even ponder and know what I can give. :( Maybe my time but that too depends on my priorities....:( I cant promise to be able to do that... Maybe money that too depends on my bank balance :( I cant promise to be able to do that :( Mybe care for them but not too sure :( Talk about having parents, having siblings, partners and what I want from them but I never give it a thought what I have to give. I want a father to give me a sense of security, be a good dad, love and care for me, a mom who looks after me, cooks for me, a brother who cares for me, fetches me from...

Its sad....I recently got the aquarium as a gift and now Hasi has already died :( Hasi was the one always creating havoc...it uprooted the plants and chased Khushi all around...It used to push Khushi at a corner and not even let it come out to eat the food :( Last week when I entered my home there was a commotion going on and loads of leaves were scattered, this time some of them were nibbled also and they were darting around the aquarium with Hasi at the tail of Khushi. I had it enough and scolded them and asked them to stop everything right then...And in reply they stopped but then by late night Hasi had gone to a corner, I thought it might be sulking... anyways for a couple of days Hasi didn't move much from the corner and today morning didn't even eat the food otherwise its the first one to eat...:( When I came back now, I found it dead :( I am sorry Hasi...may the soul of Hasi rest in peace!

I keep eyeing the clock every now and then and find that the hands of the clock are stuck…its simply not moving…Its one of those days when I want the time to fly by but on the contrary its simply slowing…I have done nothing this entire day…wailing not waiting for the day to get over…but then the thoughts of positive thinking… enjoying every moment, count your blessings keeps echoing…and so lemme sit back and look at the day spent and the coming hours… I woke up in the morning and stood by the window marveling at nature…slowly sipping the cuppa of hot milk and watching people running off to work, children off to schools, ….While I stood there waving to ones who waved me back and not on ce did I peer at the watch. I was at my leisurely best...reading the newspaper, taking a nap even before its noon, cooking brunch at the most leisurely pace and then looking out of the window and let the world envy me :) Its marvelous weather these days…monsoon is just about to arrive and the sky seems t...

Hope and love are the two things that lets you live and even takes away the life...strange it may sound...I had a chance encounters with a few people... Married for a few years, the husband sat with a little child hoping that his wife will be out of danger and be back home soon. Just married asthmatic wife sat waiting for her husband to come back home. Married for 31 years...she sat there outside hoping her husband will improve get back his speech and come back home with her. Parents of a 9 year old boy, the boy desperate to go home and the parents hoping they will take their loved ones back home. Husband and wife sat hoping that their only son - 23 year old boy comes back to life and they take him home. Married for 42 years had seen her husband as a retired colonel giving orders and there he was lying a decapitated man...there was no hope but she still wanted him to come back home. An old man with son and daughter-in-law fighting for life hoping they would end their battle soon and c...